Things Being Alone Have Taught Me

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Not that I’m “very” alone. I mean, I still see Master, and of course we’re still together. But, since he’s been working so much lately (stupid work!) I have had to spend much more time by myself, and that includes during meal times. The thing is, I’ve always been kind of bad at eating when I’m alone. For one thing, I don’t really see myself as worthwhile to cook for. I mean, if Master is home too – I will gladly cook, but if I am all alone, I don’t normally cook just for myself. It’s just me, I reason. Why would I bother? And most of the time, if Master isn’t home – I just will eat whatever is already cooked; leftovers, a banana, some cauliflower. Whatever’s in the fridge. Some days I get caught up in chores or something and I don’t even eat dinner at all. (I used to be bad at breakfast and lunch, too, but slowly I’ve become pretty good at feeding myself first thing in the morning and lunch too. Dinner has been a difficult one for a while now, because I almost always share it with Master, and if I can’t I feel guilty about eating it at all, which is absurd, but people don’t need to make sense I suppose. I wonder if there’s an award for longest run-on sentence. Maybe I just won.)

And, of course, that all works out very well, for the first couple of days. You know, you skip a meal or two here or there, and it’s really not a huge deal. You skip a meal every night, and then try to keep doing chores after and slowly you start to fizzle. Eh, maybe you don’t. But, I do. I think it took me a week or two after Master started this ridiculous schedule. He came home one night, asked me what I had for dinner, and I told him I cooked myself something. Actually cooked myself something. He told me I was a super good kitty and he rubbed my nose! (One of my favorite rewards for being good). I don’t even remember what I cooked at that point, it was a little while back.

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Since that night, I’ve still had my ups and downs. I make sure I eat something, sure – but I haven’t gone (every single day) to the lengths of actually cooking. In order to counter this, I’ve begun cooking some things ahead of time. I get a huge box of veggies from the farm once a week, and then when Master isn’t home, I’ve been putting lots of effort into cooking and freezing or storing food which can be easily reheated, and then eating all the more highly perishable things sooner (like cucumbers, tomatoes, lettuce, etc). It is working out really well, and I’m finally starting to learn that it’s okay to cook for myself even if I’m alone. I’m worth it. I’m Master’s, and he wants me to take good care of myself while he’s away.

Some days are still more difficult than others, so Master buys me one “convenience” thing per week so that if I’m having a bad day, I can easily just heat it or defrost it. Like the vegan orange chik’n in the top picture. I try to stay away from processed food for the most part, but I’m not perfect, and one night a week isn’t the end of the world, especially if it winds up in me managing to cook for myself, even in small doses. I think this is a good skill to have, even if it has taken me quite a while to finally be picking up on it. It’s the weirdest smallest things I have problems with, sometimes. Like I said – if Master is home, I am happy to cook for us both. But something about cooking for just lil ‘ol me has always stumped me. Master is so happy I’ve been cooking for myself, that he often asks me what I cooked, and I’ve been posting pictures on my Tumblr of the foods I’ve been making. He says he likes to see the things I’m cooking. =^^= Purr!

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7 thoughts on “Things Being Alone Have Taught Me

  1. I know the feeling, when I was living alone I sucked at cooking, it just seems like a lot of hassle for just you doesn’t it?
    It’s great that you’re learning that it’s ok to do it for yourself though, because eating is really important and we don’t want you getting sick through not eating, that wouldn’t be good at all.

    • Thanks @Mrs Teepot =^^= Yeah, it’s a hard lesson to learn, but I’m slowly but steadily getting it. Some nights I just don’t want to (thus, the easy out with prepared food), but it’s progress anyway.

  2. Yaarff!

    yah, i love eto cook so much, but much of its just me and the 9 taild tripod one that im makeing food for, and i cant manage to bring the energy together make much, but i know we need to eat.

    being dibetic i need to keep snacks and nibbles at hand as im spose to eat 4 or 5 small meals a day instead of 3 larger meals, even then some days i only mange to have breakfast and dinner, i guess this is part of why im continueing to lose weight wich is a very good thing for me.

    Fyre

    • @Fyre Yeah, I don’t have a reason for it, but I’m more of a grazer than a three big meals person, too. I’m glad you’re losing weight! :) *Hugs*

  3. I feel like a lot solidarity reading your posts lately about your master being away a lot. My SO has been working constantly and traveling for the last 6+ months. It’s so hard to keep a good attitude even when I really try. You regularly inspire me to be more positive. I miss him a ton and get sick of being home alone.

    My trick is cooking food that will reheat well for him later. That makes me feel like cooking is worthwhile even when I’m home alone….otherwise I’d probly not eat at all.

    • Please ignore all the horrible typos in my first sentence :)

    • @Nikki Aww, I’m sorry you’re dealing with something similar. People are constantly complimenting me on my positive attitude, but really, I don’t know what else to do. I have mopey days like everyone does, but, at the end of a mopey day I never feel as good as those days that I dig deep and find things that need doing and just do them. This is only temporary, and I’m crossing my fingers it’s over soon.

      Thanks for the cooking tip! :) I try to do that too. Also, I like to cook things ahead of time and freeze them (if they’re freezable, some things taste awful after you freeze them.)

      I really do hope you get through this rough patch you’re in too.

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