I had the most severe POTS episode of my life last night. It scared the crap out of Master and me, and luckily things went pretty well, really. Urgent care to ambulance, ambulance to ER. ER gave me fluids, and I perked up – just, not all the way. I won’t go into the details of all my symptoms, but Master told me at the time he was terrified. :/ I felt pretty calm in my head, but I also felt like I was fading really fast. Scary.
The fact of the matter is that I have been having really crummy POTS symptoms a lot lately. Hell, Master walked into the apartment a few weeks ago, and found me like this:
“What on Earth are you doing, Kitty?”
“I feel like I’m going to faint, but I don’t want to stop playing my game.”
(I’m a persistent bugger, don’t you know. I very rarely let a minor to moderate POTS episode stop me from doing what I want. Though, the severe episodes sort of stand up and are all “I OWN THIS ROOM I OWN YOU!”) As a side note, in case you didn’t know, if someone is about to faint, you are supposed to elevate their legs above their head. Thus, the above situation.
Master and me have been waiting to see a specialist to try to get my POTS under control, but we haven’t quite hammered that out as of yet. (It’s hard to get time off from work, etc.) In the meantime, I’ve been doing what I was told by my last cardiologist, which is to wear compression socks, eat salt, load up on water as much as possible.
There’s one other thing that I have been told to do, but I have been sort of resisting, because I just.. Don’t want to. Basically, I need to buy some shape wear for my tummy. A corset would be best, but that’s going to take a while to save up for, because I’m going to buy a good one. (Master and me both love the idea of corset training too, BTW, so we’re looking forward to the day we can buy a real corset. Bonus that it would help my health.) Still, I do not like the idea of shape wear because the whole premise of it is that it helps prevent muffin tops and smoothes your “lines” etc. But, in reality, if people buy the right size clothing, they wouldn’t have that whole muffin top thing going on. I mean, that’s how it works for me, anyway. I’m not size shaming, really, I like people of all sizes, but if there’s a huge visible line going across your back when you wear a bra – it is because you are wearing the wrong one. You need to go to your local lingerie shop and get fitted for a bra. No shame in that. I think that beauty ideals like not having a “roll” when you sit down are stupid. I know super skinny girls who still have a roll when they sit. Know why? BECAUSE IT IS NORMAL FOR YOU TO HAVE A LITTLE BULGE WHEN YOU SIT!! >.< ::AHEM::
But, the fact of the matter is that having compression around my middle should help me faint less, similarly to how I put compression socks on. So I’m told, anyway. I have added a few “shape wear” types of things to my wishlist for when I get allowance. I still have this little bit of “BLEH! The human body is beautiful whether it has a few bumps or not!” but I am reminding myself, that I’m not buying this stuff because I think I would be ugly without it. I’m buying it because my desire to stay vertical wins over my desire to hate the concept of “shape wear” and all that it stands for.
Now, everyone cross your fingers it works. I am getting really tired of this crap.