I wanted to give a little update on my ballet boot training, because I've been getting lots of emails about how I haven't talked about this much on my blog. I didn't realize how many people read my blog specifically to hear about how my training in the boots is going, but I'm kind of shocked. If you do read this blog, you'll see that I've had a number of injuries lately, and two of them were leg related. (One hamstring strain, and one broken big toe). Breaking a big toe isn't like breaking the other toes, you can't just tape it to the next toe and keep on going. I had been in an air cast (read: huge fricken boot!), but as of this week I am out of the boot, and into a glorious little post-op shoe. (At least, until the swelling in my foot goes down enough to wear a normal shoe.)
So, basically, training in my ballet boots is coming along slowly but surely. Last year I had an injury to my knee which kept me away from the boots too. I don't know if I will ever get where Master wants me to be in these boots, but we are definitely working on it. As of right now, we obviously are going to need to put off training until my toe is 100% healed. I can walk, but I look like a lopsided badger. I start up physical therapy on Tuesday and I'm hoping that it helps. In the meantime, ballet boots aren't at the top of our list, and we're taking out time. There's no rush, and being able to walk normal in flats is number one right now. I really hope that those of you who were curious about my ballet boots understand. I will post updates as they come.
Written by redvinylkitty
on April 28, 2012 at 12:01 am
Poor Serenade. Under normal circumstances, Master and me are not really fans of humiliating your pets, especially with a meme. Especially with a meme as silly as this one, but when we saw "cat breading" on South Park, we had to look it up. Master and me giggled our asses off, and thus: Serenade Sandwich was born.
I'm sorry Baby. Chances are, we probably won't do this to you again.
Definitely probably not.
::Snicker::
Written by redvinylkitty
on April 15, 2012 at 12:01 am
This week's a two-fer! Serenade and Sabrina, and gasp, they are getting along! Admittedly, Master took this shot. I didn't even witness this in person, it wasn't until he showed me the picture that I realized that they were napping together. Maybe they do this a lot when we're not looking? Who knows? They do look cute there, napping and not trying to kill each other though. Don't you think?
Written by redvinylkitty
on April 8, 2012 at 12:01 am
There a lot of things that I enjoy doing, some things that I don't like doing but do anyway to please Master or my partner, a couple of things which I detest doing but will do for Master or to please my partner, and one thing that I can't seem to get my head into the right space to enjoy 99% of the time (but do anyway to please Master, or my partner).
Oral Sex.
Not giving! I love giving oral sex. I like sucking cock, and I like licking cunt. I just can't seem to get my head into the right mind frame to enjoy receiving oral sex most of the time. The times I've enjoyed it, I've been too distracted by pleasure (super turned on, or otherwise excited) and I haven't thought about the actual act as it's going on.
If I'm honest with myself, whenever oral sex is given to me first thing, I get all "squeemy". I feel a bit ill inside, thinking about the idea of someone else's tongue on my cunt. The texture to me is gross. The idea of someone else's saliva there is nauseating. I do not know why this is an issue to me, but it is. Sometimes I can get past it, if I'm being fingered at the same time as I'm receiving oral sex. Sometimes I can't. Sometimes we have to move on to something completely different until I'm really, really hot and bothered first and am distracted enough not to really realize I'm receiving oral sex.
When people ask me if I like to receive oral sex, my answer is usually "No", because it has conditions attached. No, I don't like having my cunt licked unless I'm really, really horny or otherwise distracted. No, it has nothing to do with how good your "skillz" are. No, you're not going to be the one who makes me love oral sex. It's a mental hang up, not a physical one. I've definitely had orgasms from oral sex, but I need to get out of my head, and that's really hard to do in the moment.
It is frustrating to me to try to explain this to potential partners. A lot of them seem to have a "Well, you gave me oral sex, so now I have to give you oral sex." Well, you can if you want to. But chances are if oral sex is the only thing going on, I just won't be able to cum. If it's after a good beating, or during something else I really enjoy, we might get there - but it's something I'm letting the other person do because they want to, not because I want to. And, that is all well and good! I have no issue with that. I personally love the taste of cunt. I love licking it and tasting it and nipping it (hee hee)! It would be terrible to me if I was with a female partner and she didn't want to have her cunt licked (even a bit), but I wouldn't push the issue. I'm a giver, not a taker.
"But! But! You enjoy piss games! I know you drink your Master's piss! How can you possibly find receiving oral sex to be gross?"
I don't. At least, I don't think it's a gross concept or idea. I don't think it should be banned or the practise should stop. It's just something that I've been working on getting past for a long time, and I can't really help the hang up I have with it. Does it mean I don't receive oral sex? Absolutely not! Master loves giving oral sex. He too loves the taste of cunt. I don't deny him when he (or others we play with) want to engage in giving me oral sex. However, it's definitely not a "for my pleasure" activity.
I definitely feel alone on this one in a lot of ways. Most people I know (with a few exceptions) do love receiving oral sex. And I don't blame them, but when it comes time for me to explain why I don't like it, they get defensive or try to tell me that their "mega skillz" will impress me. It's not about skills, it's about me getting past the feeling of a tongue on my clit. I've gotten better about it over the years, but it's something I have to actively work on. I've talked with Master about this a lot, trying to figure out how I can get past it. I feel weird about the whole thing, and wish there was a way around it. Master's response is usually something along the lines of:
"Everybody has something they have trouble either giving or receiving. This is just yours."
Ain't that the truth? But, it doesn't mean we've given up trying.
Written by redvinylkitty
on April 7, 2012 at 12:01 am
