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I'm writing this entry at Master's request.  He thought it was a good idea.  I wasn't sure I was going to bring all this up, but I will do as Master says.

This week has been trying my patience on a lot of levels.  I try to be optimistic about things, no matter what.  I'm always that annoyingly perky "Oh, things will be fine..." type of person for a lot of things, but this week..  Well.  This week is testing me.

Sunday, Master and me were relaxing and having a pretty good day, truth be told.  All of a sudden, Master came down with a migraine.  This struck me as really off, because Master rarely gets headaches or even migraines, and when he does a little bit of Excedrin Migraine usually fixes him right up.  This time the headache was so bad he had to go lay down in a dark quiet room and sleep it off.  He felt better, but was still "off" the rest of the day.  The next day he went in to work as per usual, but I could tell something wasn't right when he got home.  He just didn't seem like his usual self.  He admitted to me that his wisdom tooth was causing him a lot of pain.  I suspected this was the cause of the migraine, so we went out and got him some Oragel.  As it turns out, that lessened the headache immensely.  It doesn't take algebra to figure out that 1+1 = 2.

I called up the dentist who confirmed my suspicions, and set up an appointment to get Master in as soon as possible for tooth extraction.  He's had all his other wisdom teeth out, and this is the remaining one.  We had set up an appointment to have it done on a Saturday, but we had to cancel because I couldn't drive with my foot in an air cast.  Figures.  Now, there was no option but to take him to have his tooth out.

Master has known for over ten years (since back before I met him!) that he needed this tooth out, but the dentists he'd seen in the past all wanted to send him to have general anesthesia and have a dental surgeon do it.  His tooth is really messed up.  It's partially erupted, but unfortunately it is growing into his jaw.  In order to get the tooth out, he needs to have his jaw partially broken.  Poor Master.  The dentist we have now is really awesome, he's actually the president of our state's dental association, and he's qualified to put Master completely to sleep as well as perform the procedure.  Master felt comfortable with this guy, so he's been planning on having this done for a while.

That left us with a bit of a conundrum.  Driving with an air cast isn't against the law, but I knew I wouldn't really be able to do it with the boot on..  And Master absolutely did not want me to take my boot off.  After much calling around, he figured out a ride to and from the dental office for us both.  Master isn't allowed to take a taxi, and they insisted on having a family member there with him the whole time.  I totally understand, but that does make it hard.

So today, we're headed out bright and early to have Master's tooth out.  I feel so bad for him, worried too, truth be told.  The doctor said that it's going to be hard to get Master up into the house with all the stairs.  He said that if I can't help him walk up the stairs (especially with my broken toe), that I'll be in trouble (because Master is going to have serious trouble walking apparently).  I don't know what else to do, honestly, that's the part that scares me most.  They're even going to wheel him out to the car in a wheel chair, no walking at all.  I have a back up plan, if I can't get Master in the house myself..  But I'm not even sure if it'll work.  Ugh.

I have some nerves about how well I'll be able to take care of Master.  I'm obviously going to do my best, and I would never let him suffer, but at the same time..  My foot is just not healing very quickly at all, and Master keeps telling me to get off of it.  It'll be an interesting long weekend for sure.  I'll do whatever is necessary, but I'd be lying to say I wasn't a little bit nervous.

I guess it all boils down to being over protective of Master.  He is my other third, after all..  I know I wouldn't want my jaw broken.  I just hope that he'll be OK.  He's not even allowed to have any pain medicine for a full 24 hours after his tooth gets taken out, because I guess it could mess around with the anesthesia drugs and give him a bad reaction.  Master is no good at dealing with pain, and I hope that he isn't in too much.

Last night, Master and me also got a bit of bad news, and we may need to prepare for another visit back home soon.  A very good family friend has cancer, and it wasn't caught until too late (he thought he had the stomach flu, but it wouldn't go away).  It is so bad, that he's in the hospital right now, and there is little to no hope for him.  He has stopped eating, and he's very, very weak.  I won't lie and say we were super close or ultra best friends.  But, he was one of the few people who was invited to our teeny tiny wedding.  Master's Mom says that she'll buy our plane tickets for the flight out, if need be, but she wants us to be at the funeral.  I really, really do want to go to the funeral, as does Master..  But we're both worried about him taking more time off from work.  It's not even the time off so much (as he has plenty left!), but it's more that he just took two days off with no notice at all, and if we need to take more time off, I honestly don't know how his work will react.  I can keep saying "Well, nothing bad could happen next.." But, the truth of the matter is, that more bad things keep happening.  That's life, and there's no way around it.  I just want Master's surgery to go well, then I can focus on how my doctor's appointment will go on Monday (with the foot specialist), then I can (hopefully) worry about our friend.  I feel so bad that he's doing so poorly.  I really wish we could be there before he goes, or even better, that there's hope for him to live.  I'm a very positive girl, but, sometimes there isn't much hope, and holding out on false hope is just a big let-down later.

Sheepy Kitty

Rosie, My Glo-Worm

"Are You Sheepy Kitty?"

"Nuh-uh."  Eye lids start to droop

"You're sure about that?"  Knowing smile

Eye lids open wide "Yup.  Kitty good kitty.  Kitty want be up wif Master."

"Kitty want tuck?" Wide grin

Sigh "Yes Master."

A couple years ago, Master decided I had a bed time.  Initially, I didn't like it, because it wasn't something I was able to just do overnight.  Sure, I went to bed when Master put me there, but I didn't fall asleep right away for a while.  Eventually I got used to the bed time rule, and I found that I had more energy during the day, and a lot less insomnia than I did before, though it still haunts me now and then.

When I broke my foot about six weeks ago, Master started letting me stay up late.  We both knew that I wasn't going to be working in the morning, not for a while anyway, and it was just nice to be together.  Of course, here we are several weeks later, and I'm still not back at work because I'm still trapped in the boot.

My body is beginning to adjust to our late night escapades again, and I'm not falling asleep right away, even when Master puts me to bed at midnight or later!  Because of this, he told me (excluding weekends) that he's going to start putting me to bed at my usual 10PM time again.  I'm a bit bummed because I saw it as a sort of "perk" to the broken foot.  Sort of, something I could look forward to.  I do understand, and I know it's not a punishment, it's for my own good.

Serenade Sunday - Lemming Edition

Cat Breading

Poor Serenade.  Under normal circumstances, Master and me are not really fans of humiliating your pets, especially with a meme.  Especially with a meme as silly as this one, but when we saw "cat breading" on South Park, we had to look it up.  Master and me giggled our asses off, and thus:  Serenade Sandwich was born.

I'm sorry Baby.  Chances are, we probably won't do this to you again.

Definitely probably not.

 

::Snicker::

Playtime Pictures

Pre-play, Just Getting Gagged and Cuffed Up

Master and me brought the cam in on one of our recent play sessions.  I honestly don't remember a lot of it because we started out with a nice heavy spanking, and heavy impact play usually sends me into subspace quickly.  Subspace doesn't lend itself too well for me to remember what happened.  But, I do have pictures, and they do jog some of my memory, though there aren't pictures of everything.

Red Bum

It's funny, but, Master and me were talking a couple of weeks ago.  We frequently talk about our sex, our play, and our desires.  Master asked me if I think he hits me hard enough, because sometimes he holds back a bit as he knows he doesn't know his strength and he is a bit scared to just let loose and beat me.  I said:

"Yes!  I think you hit me hard enough.  Some sessions I feel like I want to be hit more, some sessions I think it's perfect.  Rarely do I feel that you're putting me out of my comfort zone though.  I wouldn't mind getting a couple of beatings which make me very, very uncomfortable."

And, I don't know how it came up, but I did voice that I'd love to be beaten for longer amounts of time.  Partially because I'm insatiable, and partially because my ass seems to be "unbreakable".  I've had some pretty serious bruising and some redness that lasted longer than a week on my ass from canes and the heavy wooden paddle, but I rarely get to the point where my ass is just warm and sore for an hour or two after we're done play.  I know that over time you develop resistance to bruising and redness, but I love the feel of my butt hot and sore beneath me.  Actually, in my entire experience doing BDSM activities I've only ever had my ass hurt the next day once, and I only felt it immediately after sitting down, then it was gone.

Well, Master must have taken our talk to heart and he's begun spending a lot more time just hitting me.  I won't lie - I absolutely love it, and my cunt loves it too.  I'm a Hell of a lot wetter for the actual sex when I get beaten before we get there.  Sometimes I feel like my body just converts pain into lube.  I love it so so much.

Cunt With Vibe

He teased me quite a bit with the little light up vibe  we have.  I had such a hard time not cumming, but he kept telling me he was going to make me hold out longer than usual that day.  He also did a lot of breath play with me, which is quickly becoming a favorite with us both.  I'm really holding out quite a bit without my body sort of panicking and going crazy, and Master is getting more comfortable with the idea of not letting me breathe.  He has even devised a new way to keep me from breathing which involves a lot less work on his part.  While he can use his hand to stop me from breathing, I can breathe a little bit through it.  His response to that (after quite a bit of experimenting) was to put one of my bigger ball gags in my mouth (nothing smaller than 2" in diameter), and then to just pinch off my nose.  This way, he doesn't really have to struggle to keep me from breathing, but I can't breathe through the gag at all.  I've been really enjoying it, and I love how much he is enjoying it too.**

Scratched Up Kitty

After quite a bit of teasing on Master's part, he had me get up and move to the floor (we can't have sex on the massage table.  Wish we could though!) I still had the ball gag in, and I spread my legs wide begging him with my body to enter me, while he got up to get a condom.

"Is Kitty hungry for cock?"

I tried to moan, but I couldn't because my gag is so large it doesn't let me utter a peep.  I wiggled my hips enticingly, and spread my legs further.

When Master entered my cunt, he told me that now that his cock was inside me, I could cum any time I wanted to.  I would have purred if I wasn't unable to speak still.  It did not take  long for me or Master to cum.

"What are you doing tomorrow night?"  Master asked me, jokingly.

"Hopefully whatever YOU'RE doing tomorrow night."  I giggled between happy sighs.

Purr.

 

**Disclaimer:  Do not attempt breath play ever, and if you do, it wasn't because I told you it was a good idea.  It's a terrible bad idea, and if you do it and get hurt or hurt your partner, it wasn't because I told you it was safe.  It isn't safe, although there are ways to make it less dangerous.  Either way, neither Master or myself are telling you to participate in it.  At all.  /Ass Covering

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