Six Years

What a different place we are in than we were last year.  A very different place.  It’s still strange to think that it hasn’t even been a week since Master’s company downsized and let go of over 100 employees.  It has been a very difficult few days.  The first couple of days we both spent going back and forth in small fits of despair.  One minute we were determined and sure this was nothing.  The next minute, one of us would be panicked.  I admit, it was usually me who got scared, but Master sure chimed in a few times too.

People have been coming out of the woodwork to help out Master and me.  Old and current (or, I guess they are all old now) co-workers have been contacting Master asking if he knows about this system or that.  He has submitted himself with three head hunters and has also sent in his resume to a bunch of places already.  We’re surfing around for focus groups and odd jobs either one of us can do for cash.  The days have been very full of errands and job hunting, and the nights are filled with sewing for the Mewtique.  Right now, we’re focused on doing anything we possibly can to help ourselves get by.  It’s scary not having any idea how long Master will be without a job, but I do know that there’s no one out there right now who is trying harder than he is to find work.  Truly, that is really comforting on its own.

We’ve started going to food pantries to make the money we do have stretch that much further.  I’m the only one working at the moment, so we don’t have a lot of money coming in.  Still, it is better than nothing.

Just last week we were discussing what we were going to do for today, our sixth marriage anniversary.  Master said he was going to come up with a surprise.  There won’t be a surprise now, but you know what?  We’ll get to be together all day, and that is something we wouldn’t have been able to do before.  Is it ideal?  Well, no, of course not.  Still, you have to take the silver linings where you can get them, I say.

The days feel so odd to us both.  Master has been able to sleep in every day, because he no longer needs to be up at 5:30 AM.  Bed time is out the window, because Master lets me stay up to work as late as I possibly can, so long as I have eight hours between bed and when I need to be awake for our appointments and errands the next day.  The appointments will probably slow down in a week or so.  We’re trying to use our good insurance before it kicks out, and we’re getting up to date on physicals, dental, eye exams, etc.  We’re going to get a flu shot too once we both get over a couple of colds we have.  (Master had actually been getting sick for a couple days while he was still working, and he brought a cold bug home to me.  Nice, huh?)  All in all, we’re making due.

While this isn’t the anniversary we dreamed of, I count us lucky for what we do have.  We have each other.  We have our little kitty.  We have a roof.  We have food.  We have determination.  This isn’t easy, but under Master I know we will both get through this.  We will persevere.

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