I Am No Longer Vegan

Now that I have your attention – yes, I’ve decided to stop being vegan.  It is something I’ve been talking with Master about for a while now, and it wasn’t until recently that I decided to just quit.  Now before you go thinking that this is a nutritional thing, it isn’t.  I was vegan for a year and a half, and a couple months ago, I got my annual blood work done.  All of my blood levels were perfect, I wasn’t deficient in anything:  protein, iron, b12.  You name it, I had healthy levels.  I still think that anyone can maintain a healthy body being vegan.  I still think that you can get enough protein.  I still think there is no huge health difference between eating animals and eating plants only. 

When I look back on my journey as a vegan, I am thankful that it is something I did.  I would never have learned to cook.  There are so many foods I never would have tried and learned to love.  I would not have learned that half of your plate should consist of vegetables (vegan, vegetarian, or not!), I would not have learned how to eat at any restaurant being vegan.  I would not have learned about the dairy and meat industry.  I am grateful that I learned everything that I did.  I’m grateful to the people I met along the way who helped me when I was having trouble.  I’m grateful for learning things about my body that I never knew before.

There are a few things which have prompted this.  One of them I will not be going into, because it is highly personal and not something I would like to share.  The next thing about my decision is a bit disturbing to me.  The fact of the matter is, no matter how much I would like to pretend that it does not, leather turns me on immensely.  It doesn’t matter if you tell me what the animal suffered to get me that leather.  It doesn’t matter if I know where the leather comes from.  The smell and feel of leather (especially when it is binding me in some way) is a major turn on.  I love it.  The fact that I know where leather comes from and I am still turned on by it is disturbing to myself.  I do not mean that it disturbs me that others are into leather.  Leather is a common kink, after all.  I disagree with how it is produced in most cases though, so I do find it disturbing that even though I do not like its production, I am willing to go back to using it.  Call me a monster if you must.  I do not care.  I have decided to stop denying my body something which make it so happy.

When it comes to food, I am not going to just go out and buy a ton of meat and cheese and mow it down.  Master and me laughed thinking about that senario.  Truthfully, I am probably going to be more what most people call a “flexitarian”, although I am not going to label myself as such.  For those of you who have never heard of that, it means you eat vegetarian for most of your meals, but will eat meat if you are at a restaurant, or if you’re at a friend’s house or something.  I’ve never really loved the taste of meat, so I really think that it is going to be just a rare couple times a week at most occurrence.

I have been speaking with Master about this for a while now.  I’ve asked him if he would think any less of me for deciding to go back to being an omnivore.  He said no.  He told me that he was proud of me for giving veganism as much of a shot as I did.  He told me he did not think he would be eating as healthy as he is now if I never went vegan.  (My being vegan gave him a lot of chances to try new foods he had not heard of.)  The thing that hit me the most was how he said:

“You’re human.  You’re allowed a change of heart, or a change of mind, or a second opinion.  You are allowed to re-examine the facts and decide that something isn’t for you after all.  I am proud of you for being able to change your mind like this.  I know it is hard for you, but I love you and support you.”

Deciding to do one thing and staying closed minded to all other opinions or thoughts on the matter would be ridiculous.  I have made my choice, I’m going to eat meat and dairy again in small amounts, whenever me or Master sees fit.  I am so very glad I had the opportunity to be vegan for as long as I was, I got a whole lot out of being vegan, and I will take a lot of that knowledge into my future food choices.

Viva la dynamic kitty!

8 thoughts on “I Am No Longer Vegan

  1. *hug* Oh sweetie, you shouldn’t feel bad about liking leather. I couldn’t live without my leather jackets during the winter. They are lightweight, warm, and convenient. There’s a reason our ancestors have been using tanned hides since the stone age. True, some of the leather products out there are produced under less then ideal circumstances (I share your concerns about that too), but that doesn’t mean the whole industry is bad. Don’t feel guilty in taking comfort and pleasure in a product that is a big part of human life.

    And also, like your Master said, don’t feel bad if you no longer want to be strictly vegan anymore. The whole point of life is to explore, create and learn. You’ve gone as far as you can with veganism; time for something new 🙂

    1. Thanks, Maverick! I still feel like I’m going to have somewhat complex feelings on the leather thing.. But I do like it. So, I give up stressing over it, you know? 🙂 It’s not the leather itself that’s the problem anyway. Animal factory farms make me ill.. >.< But, you're right. Time for a new chapter. 🙂

  2. I tried being vegan for about six months. I did it for completely the wrong reasons.
    Because I have experienced it, I know how much effort it takes in reading labels and educating oneself to be vegan especially a healthy vegan who doesn’t exist on processed food. I have a lot of respect for anyone who is vegan for any length of time.

    I’ve had partners who weren’t supportive when I changed my mind about something. It is so precious that you have someone who is supportive when you change your mind.

    1. Thanks Lada! Yeah, some of the reasons I became vegan were wrong, as well. I did learn a lot though. I do feel very lucky to have Master in my life, and have him be so supportive and loving. I know my family is *not* going to be. >.<

  3. I can understand the leather turn on so well!!! I really love wet leather being drip with water 🙂 but unfortunity I don’t own any and neither does my Master because leather is expensive here alot! I went vegie a while back but it didnt work out because I didn’t know how to eat healthy. Now I am learning how to eat healthier, although like you I don’t like the taste of meat much, I eat small amounts. And yes being vegie or vegan can teach you alot, I now know what I put and use on my body. All of my hair products are still vegan and make up. I keep telling myself at least I know now 🙂 good luck!

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