Alright, as anyone who reads my blog will know, a couple of weeks ago Master hurt his back. I became stressed only a few days after that, which was very odd for me. I’m the type of girl who really just doesn’t stress out easily. It takes a lot to get me really stressed, but if that happens, I’m not too far from “depressed”. Depression for me equals no motivation. This is bad.
During these two weeks I learned something about myself which I hadn’t realized. My personal form of stress relief is sex. Maybe this was obvious to everyone else, but not to me. I guess I had not realized that the main reason why I don’t get riled up is because Master provides me with a regular stream of sex, and that those “good feelings endorphins” always seem to be rolling. I suppose to many of you the obvious answer of how to de-stress when Master is out of comission is masturbation. I am not limited by Master as to how often or when I may masturbate, so this seems the reasonable option. Masturbation really doesn’t work all that well for me though.
For starters, I can’t really cum without pain, and I don’t really get turned on when I’m all by myself. Sure I can cum, if I use the Hitachi, but outside of that it’s mainly nipple clamps in painful places and vibrators. The orgasms I get when I am alone with myself are rarely to never the sort which “relieve stress”. But more just my body going through the motions. In fact, if the Hitachi wasn’t such a beast of a machine, I doubt I’d be able to cum very often if at all, on my own.
Exercise is wonderful for helping me sleep at night, which in turn leads to less stress. I find that the best exercise to put me to sleep at night is strength training. If I strength train enough during the day, I fall to sleep with little to no issues at night. There’s just one problem. If I’m already feeling stressed out, this is likely to just make things worse. If things are fine and dandy then I can strength train all I like with no problems.
Thinking about all of this lately has lead me to one more thought. I don’t want to have to rely on someone for my stress levels to be relieved. This isn’t fair to the person I am with, and it’s not fair to myself. When I’m stressed out, I’m not serving Master at my best, and he deserves my best.
My question is this: what do YOU do to relieve stress? Please let me know what you do when things get too hard, in the comments section. 🙂
And just to let you all know. I am feeling miraculously better now. I am back to my normal, perky self again. I am just looking to prevent future stress-fail. 🙂