Not as good as last week, but here I am still pushing through as best as I can. Master Pravus sometimes chuckling and cheering “You can do it, Kitty!” when he sees me doing my little laps around the center of the house. “It’s not that much further.” Nope, not really. It’s only forever, not […]
Read MoreEvery young goth must at some time face the pivotal moment where they come to reach the fullness of their goth state. Their goth “card” removed, it is returned only with the official stamp of “Elder” above their name and date of birth. Many of us don’t feel it closing in upon us, or if […]
Read MoreFlashback to when I was first in a training collar. I had come out of a tubbie, and Master Pravus had laid out an outfit on the bed for me to wear. I don’t recall the entire outfit he had chosen for me anymore. It was a long time ago, but I remember parts of […]
Read More*Feeding tube has been… Choleric. It’s been beeping every night or so just waking me up out of a nice relaxing sleep. It’s still running right now, but every time it wakes me up, I have trouble getting back to sleep of course. I’ve had problems with insomnia for as far back as I can […]
Read MoreI was taking my tubbie, but this time was a little different than normal. I hadn’t had my port accessed in a couple of days so the skin had a chance to grow a scab over the top. Usually, I have to be really careful not to get it wet. “You know, you could lay […]
Read MoreThey did eventually get me fixed up, and now I’m trying to piece things together at a rate that doesn’t break me, but also keeps me moving forward. I’m trying to remind myself that slow moving is still moving.. All those things. Cliff notes. I had an awful time getting to sleep the night before. […]
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